If you are completely overwhelmed with it all and really can’t face dealing with it, that’s totally fine, but for your own health and wellbeing, and to enable you to fix your situation, you probably do need to address why you feel this way about money and possibly look at how your feelings about money and debt could have contributed to your current situation.
Money is still very much a taboo subject in most cultures so it often helps to speak to someone impartial that will not judge you but instead provide you will strategies to cope with your feelings around money and help you to help yourself create a better future.
Please do not despair, it’s just money and it can be fixed. Take care of yourself and take the process of sorting out your debts one step at a time. Don’t beat yourself up, just take each day as it comes, you will get there!